today

Today has been one of those days. I feel really tired and sort of depressed. I know I will lose the weight eventually but I want the next three weeks to go by faster. I tried this weekend starting to eat real food (soft cooked pasta and vegetables, and tried hard boiled eggs) but every time I eat I just throw it back up. Not fun. I get on the scale and it doesn’t move. I am getting frustrated. I could probably do the no eating things I enjoy, if I at least saw the scale move. I am glad I have this blog to just get out my frustrations on. And I am so blessed to have a husband who is constantly trying to make me happy. I am falling asleep will write more later.

Pictures

This is me the morning of surgery




Three weeks and 23 lbs later ( January 28th) 267

Four weeks 27 pounds down ( February 4th) 263


almost six weeks 41 pounds down (February 22) 248

Down a total of 64 pounds ( 225)

A little up date

So I know I haven’t written in forever. I had my first post-op appointment today. On Wednesday it will be 3 weeks since my surgery and I am already down 20 lbs. They said everything looks fabulous. So of course to treat myself I went SHOPPING!!!! I had to throw out 3 bras and I went from a 46DDD down to a 42 DD. My shirt size was a 26/28 (4X) and now I am a 18/20 (XL)!!! I am a pear shape now; which I don’t like, but I am excited that I know my waist will catch up with my top half soon enough. I feel great! And on Wednesday I can start eating real food again. I am very excited.

Stress

I am the first to admit it, I am a stress eater. Today had been one of those days and i want to eat everything in the house. But I cant, and I would never. Today has been completely stressed due to William having to be admitted to a mental institution. He threatened to kill me today, and I am now a little overwhelmed. I have to take a shower and get to bed.

Monday Morning

Woke up at 5 am this morning with a really bad stomach ache. I think I pushed myself too hard yesterday trying to paint one of our rental properties. I feel so lazy just sitting around doing nothing, but I know its for the best to just try to recover. My mother in-law is in town and I am grateful that she is willing to come up here and help us with stuff around the property and all. My Mom and Pop came over yesterday to help as well, I am so blessed to have them in my life.

Today I am going to try to drink just a lot of water and of course my protein shakes, but not much more then that. I am going to try to see if my stomach will calm itself down.

I got on the scale this morning and I am down another 2 lbs. So since i started this whole thing that's 9 lbs total. I am SO excited. My face seems much more thinner already. But every day will be interesting to see how my body responses to this surgery.

~Sunday the Sabbath~

Sundays are always really important to me, unfortunately i cant have any solid food yet so I cant even take the sacrament. I woke up this morning with my back really hurting and my stomach growling. I have never been one to eat breakfast but now i know that i cant get away with not eating. I usually start the day out with 1 ounce of plain water, and then follow that with another ounce and my pills. Yeah I am finally starting to actually get in the hang of this. I have never been one to actually take my pills. Then some time before 10 I have to get in my 2 ounces of protein shake.

I am going to steer away from Popsicles today. I was having too many B.M.s yesterday and i am wondering if that is what was causing it or if it was the Chicken broth that i tried for the first time since surgery yesterday. I will try just chicken broth tomorrow, and water of course to see if that is what is causing my b.m.s. till later

Back pain

My back pain tends to kick in when i am trying to rest. The gas just loves to sit right on my spine. I am using a heating pad ( thanks Kira) and am able to finally rest. I walked so much the first couple days my hips are killing me. I have already lost, as far as i can tell using my piece a crap scale, 6 pounds. I am having some energy problems still, and i think i might be over doing it as far as the lifting goes. My first "taste" craving is... Peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I would NEVER eat it, but boy do i want want. I am never hungry, and it is actually difficult to even drink my 6 oz of protein shake and all the other liquid i am suppose to be having. I think every day will get better and easier.