Faith

So the other day I was looking at a magazine from our church and there was a quote in there that really made a lot of sense to me, and has helped me through this week, It is by Neal A. Maxwell, “Faith in God, includes Faith in his timing.”

I really like it, and it makes me realize I am not going to be thin over night, and if I happen to not lose any weight in 2 weeks its ok, it just means my body is adjusting. I hate it but I have to remember that it’s not up to me...

I also have to remember that it is not up to me when or if we ever get pregnant. It is in Gods hands and will happen only on his time..

Ok Heavenly Father, you ask me to be patient.. I am trying!!!

SAME OUTFIT!

Same Outfit..

This is my heaviest



64 pounds lighter.. Now weighing 225!

50 pounds!

So I am officially 50 pounds down since surgery. So a total of 70 since my heaviest. I am very excited. I am now 238 pounds. Here are some pictures.
50 freakin pounds!!





Pants down from a 24/26 to a 18/20 that is 4 pant sizes!!! cant believe it!!

Finding joys in time of exhaustion

So last night when I went upstairs to the attic to look at where the roof was leaking from, I remembered that I had an entire suit case full of clothes that I couldn’t fit into 6 months ago. Well I took them out last night and tried them on. About a quarter of the stuff is wayyyyy to big now, about quarter of it fits but doesn’t look good on my new figure  and half of it fits. I am excited that I have some more clothes that will fit while I am in between sizes right now.

Talking about sizes I am now comfortably fitting into an 18! I am very excited.

And to top it all off…. I am officially down 50 pounds!!, since surgery. I can’t believe it. So that is 69 pounds from my heaviest.

I have had probably one of the most physically and mentally and emotionally exhausting 2 weeks in a very long time and I find joys in these little milestones.a

Milestones

I did it!! I broke the 250 mark!! I got on the scale this morning and I was 248.6!! I am very excited.. Not only that but I got out of the shower today and wrapped the towel around me to walk to my bedroom.. and i was able to wrap the towel completely around myself so nothing showed.. I haven't been able to do that in YEARS! All of these little milestones are making me very happy.. I cant believe how blessed I am..

I am finally thinner then my husband!!

Today has been actually pretty good.. I am having such a hard time remembering to eat... I had some lentil soup today, some regular cheese and some cottage cheese. Yum!

So before I started this whole journey I couldn't even fit into my husbands pants, well my brother asked me today what size in men's pants i was, i said i had no idea, so i went to see if i could fit into my husband pants yet, and they fit like a glove.. Perfect... I am soo excited.. as far as my pant size... I am now a 20!! I can still fit into a 22 but i can now fit into a 20!!! Holy... My heaviest ever was 308 today I got on the scale and I was 253!! I cant even believe that is 55 pounds!!!!!! Holy Moly O. I feel soo much better since I started all this.. Every time i work out i feel better.. and eating is getting better too..I am soo blessed........

This week

I am consumed by drama this week, and it brings me down. I have never been one who deals with stress and drama well. I am feeling sick due to my throwing everything back up when i try to eat it, so my energy is low. I am trying to find a job that i will enjoy, but more then anything i just want to be a stay at home mom. Now that wont happen for at least another year( your suppose to wait at least 12-18 months before getting pregnant) and then i will be able to hopefully to have children at that point. I am down 36 pounds since i went into the hospital 5 weeks ago. I am excited about the weight loss but still feel like something is missing in my life. I am just still trying to figure out what that is.....