Milestones

I did it!! I broke the 250 mark!! I got on the scale this morning and I was 248.6!! I am very excited.. Not only that but I got out of the shower today and wrapped the towel around me to walk to my bedroom.. and i was able to wrap the towel completely around myself so nothing showed.. I haven't been able to do that in YEARS! All of these little milestones are making me very happy.. I cant believe how blessed I am..

I am finally thinner then my husband!!

Today has been actually pretty good.. I am having such a hard time remembering to eat... I had some lentil soup today, some regular cheese and some cottage cheese. Yum!

So before I started this whole journey I couldn't even fit into my husbands pants, well my brother asked me today what size in men's pants i was, i said i had no idea, so i went to see if i could fit into my husband pants yet, and they fit like a glove.. Perfect... I am soo excited.. as far as my pant size... I am now a 20!! I can still fit into a 22 but i can now fit into a 20!!! Holy... My heaviest ever was 308 today I got on the scale and I was 253!! I cant even believe that is 55 pounds!!!!!! Holy Moly O. I feel soo much better since I started all this.. Every time i work out i feel better.. and eating is getting better too..I am soo blessed........

This week

I am consumed by drama this week, and it brings me down. I have never been one who deals with stress and drama well. I am feeling sick due to my throwing everything back up when i try to eat it, so my energy is low. I am trying to find a job that i will enjoy, but more then anything i just want to be a stay at home mom. Now that wont happen for at least another year( your suppose to wait at least 12-18 months before getting pregnant) and then i will be able to hopefully to have children at that point. I am down 36 pounds since i went into the hospital 5 weeks ago. I am excited about the weight loss but still feel like something is missing in my life. I am just still trying to figure out what that is.....

Start of it all... My heaviest ... and now...

My heaviest 308

Now 258.

This first picture is when I realized holy crap i need to do something about my weight. I never in a million years would have imagined that I would look like that. I really thank God every day for this amazing opportunity to get my weight under control and my health and LIFE back.....

Weight loss slowing down

I think I need to realize I am not going to lose all my weight over night. I only lost 3 pounds this week. I am starting to lose more slowly but even if it is 2 lbs a week its ok. I took a picture tonight, and compared it to last week. I don’t see any difference. I think I should only take a pic every 3 weeks or so, so I don’t get too frustrated.
I am starting to work out . I went to the gym for the first time since surgery this evening, and I feel soo much better. I can’t wait for another 3 weeks when I can really push myself. I have another 113 lbs to go till I hit my ideal weight. So if I lose 2 lbs a week it will take a year. I hope my impatience can deal with that. *sigh*

today

Today has been one of those days. I feel really tired and sort of depressed. I know I will lose the weight eventually but I want the next three weeks to go by faster. I tried this weekend starting to eat real food (soft cooked pasta and vegetables, and tried hard boiled eggs) but every time I eat I just throw it back up. Not fun. I get on the scale and it doesn’t move. I am getting frustrated. I could probably do the no eating things I enjoy, if I at least saw the scale move. I am glad I have this blog to just get out my frustrations on. And I am so blessed to have a husband who is constantly trying to make me happy. I am falling asleep will write more later.

Pictures

This is me the morning of surgery




Three weeks and 23 lbs later ( January 28th) 267

Four weeks 27 pounds down ( February 4th) 263


almost six weeks 41 pounds down (February 22) 248

Down a total of 64 pounds ( 225)